Contracts and GS

I'm so tired. Why can't this be easier? I have to consider each step and I do not know if you realize there are a lot. I feel as if I am burdening there surrogate with discussing the financials . We have the base fee ,the transfer fee, the starting medication fee, and the base pay base pay starts earlier than I thought.  before oh and then the kicker. Is I need to get insurance for them so that's a private policy that covers pregnancyl fully doesn't have any exclusions to it so that my stresses me out my head wants to explode just a bit if you're okay will how much is adaptable and bubble blah and I guess this is why people go through agencies but I just couldn't like they getting positive about being in agency ten grand to just take care of the little stuff I think like right now I am doing it on my own my husband's been busy but he'll join up after this weekend he's just been really busy with work I don't know. It's like a right now I'm looking at two different just gestational surrogates. And I have to see what is better for me and of course somewhat cost-effective and they have different fees one seems more lenient about things one is very like notices. But really this is someone I need like , to get me because they're carrying my child for the next like nine months so I guess? Iono. 

Searching for a GS

How do I feel? Frustrated, intimidated and more. These base comp amounts are a fortune. Do you realize that the surrogate will be receiving my salary basically? Thankful I have a job. Just... Why is comp so much when we cover every procedure possible? 

Once we save a base comp amount that is safe, we can begin. 

Insurance: didn't realize this by itself is so difficult. Our insurance doesn't cover the surrogates pregnancy. Our fertility clinic offers to monitor for first 10 weeks. So week 11-40 we need pregnancy coverage. So much to consider.. Sigh. 

3 months post freeze

Sigh. I am just overwhelmed by the search for a surrogate. It's such BS. I didn't want to bring money up but it seems like there is no other way to explain my frustrations. 

10-20k to have a kid is our mentality. Total. But apparently I am wrong. 

People are asking for comp in the 40s or 20s. Just for them. Not including expenses. As an intended parent , we must save for a surrogate, medical expenses and post birth baby stuff. It's overwhelming. 

Makes me want to give up. 

Also, trying to find someone who you trust and will carry your kid well. Your an oven!! Why are you Sooo expensive. We froze two eggs. Apparently that isn't good enough. And we were told to transfer only 1 at a time. Do you know how much that costs? arrg 2k to test someone and transfer fees. I am just over it. Why?!

BILLS BILLS BILLS

And now the bills begin stacking up. It's never ending. Recently received a bill for $2000 and I knew there had to be an error. So I called the agency and had to "discuss strongly" with them about the billing being done incorrectly.

Quite frustrating. They are wanting to charge me the $2000 for the Gestational Carrier testing though all that has been done with the potential G.C. is a survey to determine if she was a good fit.

miscommunication along with billing always wanting their money, I am irritated.

I have a full time job and to have to go back and forth calling people seeking a job is ridiculous.

How many embryos?

NEWS of the day:

of the 9 removed
the 5 fertilized
ONLY two made it for freezing.

"Fair" condition.

:(

Day after retrieval

I am sore and loopy.

Was provided with pain medication which I took once only yesterday.

Received phone call today from the Clinic. They stated of the nine follicles extracted they were able to fertilize five.

Looking at dates now. To transfer.

Day of retrieval

Woke up around 5 AM, showered and left to surgery location. 

Check in at 830 and surgery at 930. Some issues w signing in process but good. 

When taken back I was given an IV and changed 

When I went to operating room I was given anisthesia and passed out. 

Apparently the doctor came by and told us results. I was out. 

Ethan says 9 follicles were taken. 

Went home and slept.